Second Letter: Crush

Morning peepos!
am damn sleepy now in office!
gosh, i need my beauty sleep! looking like a panda already! :(
anyway just a short post.
was our 28th monthsary yesterday, but we spend the day individually.
he was in camp, while me helping bodohsis do her homework
(article writing)!
*poor me* :(
okays lurhs, thats all!
might be meeting B later on for movie! :)
Bye!


:3 Crush

On & off these few years before i meet B, i had crush.
but of course we didn't work out lurhs. :)
just puppy love gua? lols. & worst still, i have forgotten some of them already!
but a few of them were still in contact! but getting lesser already after i had B.
lols. i am such a good & tiongxim girlf right?! :)

Once i left, you won't have the chance to see me AT ALL.

Bused over to E-Hub for K yesterday with lkk, wendy & bodohsis.
& B didn't join us! Had been enjoying life myself w/o him! LOL.
but couldn't blame me~
cause he needs to do duty/help his dad/book-in.
So ya! anyway i am enjoying with my own money.! :D
& home-sweet-home.

Thinking hard whether i wana go JB shopping with lkk & co. a not?
its 2D1N.
but i know i need a break.
so it might not be a bad choice? :)


gosh, i am getting a little emotional unbalanced already. thanks to "LOVELY" parents of mine.
i am like a free maid at home. whenever i just get to sit down on the sofa, i will be kena fuck for not helping my mum to do housechores. whenever i on the air-con at like wad? 9pm? i will be asked to pay another 100$ more the the next month. whenver i finally got the time to relax & play game/on computer, i will be fuck for not teaching that bodohsis POA. i am like what? free maid, free tuition teacher. KAO! really feel damn fuck up ok?! everyone at home like wad? king & queen?! KAO! i need time to rest ok?! & THATS THE FUCKING REASON WHY I WANA STAY OUT OF HOME! i rather go to my friend's house / boyf's house early in the morning! cause at the least! i am able to rest, able to sleep in a better environment!

i don't mind helping out. but i want to rest too! out of 3 children of theirs' i don't understand they the fuck am i the only one who get fuck for not helping out! i don't understand why i am responsible for the youngest sibiling's result! they (lkk & mum) working, they are tired. I AM WORKING TOO! then what? i am not tired? & i fucking don't understand a fuck shyt ok? when i am in secondary school days/ primary school days. I don't see anyone teaching me any subjects ok? even when i don't understand what the fuck the textbook is writing! i will at least make the effort to study! stay back after school till late to check with the teachers! & revise till late when i got home. & i still remember, during the period when i am studying for my o'levels / n levels. i will get fuck for not doing housechores! So i really fucking don't understand why the fuck when she got so much time to revised as and when she want & no-one will disturb her, she don't study & YET I AM THE ONE KENA FUCK! & by pushing all the house chores, her studies to me & asking me for more money is being fair to me lurhs dey!

& now i am still controlling my temper. Just one fine day, when i couldn't stand it anymore! THAT'S IT. I am moving out & lead my own life! By then i will see, who will help out doing the house chores, who is gonna be responsible for her results & who gonna give them more money! & i am already planning to like get a job & work for like 7 days per week. i am not gonna give them more money, cause it's mend for my education fee.& i am not gonna stay home. & worst to worst. i am going back to the life whereby they do not get to see me AT ALL.

& lastly,
i am fucking disappointed, fucking angry, fucking gek xim over all of them.

First Letter : Best Friends :3

For me,
friends come & go.
But i do not need a lot of friends, just true friends.
:)

Best Friends?
I do not really have any best friends but i have best cliques! :))


FROM SCHOOL:

ECPS, cliques that i hang around with are Hazel, Weiling, Sook Yi and Han Wei. But after we graduate, we got seperated & lost contact.

PYSS, cliques that i hang around with are Xiaoting, Xue Ting, Jasline, Ning Wei & Karen. & due to some my problem, we no longer contact anymore.

Republic Poly, cliques that i hang around with are from RP-E35B, RP-W25R & RP-W26J!
But after i quit school, i hardly contact anyone of them but on and off we still chat on msn! :)


FROM WORK:

Burger King & Mos Burger, cliques that i hang around with are the crews from my batch! But lost contact after i quit the job! :(

KWE, cliques that i hang around are Yasmin, Carmen, Ray, Siti, Amy & other smoking kakis! :) Still in contact with some of them & THEY ARE FOREVER SO SIAO! :))

Yes Supermarket, cliques i hang around with are all the aunties working at BLK 829 Branch! & THOSE AUNTIES ARE CRAZY & REALLY DOTES ON ME A LOT! :D

Independent*CURRENT*, cliques i hang around with are aunties & uncles too! Sometimes good, sometimes bad! depends! but they do dotes on me too! HAHA!


ONLINE GAMES:

MAPLE & AUDI, i really know a lot of cliques from maple & audi!
Felicia, Christine, Wanton, Weilin, Peng, Lun, QingWen, Yutai, Jiali, Moses, Hanwei, Kelvin, Mayi, Milk Uncle, Miguel, Woshimushi *brothers*, Elephant, Andrew, Yuru, Catherine, Jie Xian, MistaBarista, Yiquan, Snoopy, Milo, Chloe, Jacky, Irene, Keith, Fiona,Yang, Charmine,Titus, TMY, Joanna, Milo, Andrew, Zhiyuan, Andy, Justine & many many more whom i have forgotten! :3 Mostly are still in contacts & some met up every now n then & some MIA!


Majongg:

Usual kakis! Adrian, Huiyu, Lawrence!
need to recruit more kakis already! :))
so when yoo wana majonng, CALL ME!
:)

30 Love Letters.

Okays, i know i have not been updating my blog already!
i admit am freaking lazy to do so already!
Anyway went to slut's blog.
& so i guess i am gonna blog for 30days already!:)

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

The Unperfect Me :)

I just love the way of being an imperfect woman.
& this is me.
Take it or Leave it.

没有人知道我的心到底有多痛

就算我沉默了你也不会聽到我的心聲..
就算我停止了你也不会看到我的眼淚..
就算我心碎了你也不會摸到我的心痛..
就算有一天我消失了你也不会在乎.. .

你给我的痛已经超越了我能承受的程度了
如果我能在离开你过后一点都不痛，
我会选择离开你。

如果时间能够倒流，
我不会选泽相信你。

如果时间能够倒流， 我不会选泽爱上你。
如果时间能够倒流， 我不会让你有任何的机会来伤害我。

The one who deserve you to love will never be the one who make you cry.

A fall that woke me up from a long, beautiful & painful dream :)

I HAVE INJURED MYSELF! :(
damn painful de norhs! *sobx*

Felt damn bad yesterday.
having the stupid injuries on my both legs,
was walking back, then was too into my own world typing messages n didn't notice there is a drain infront of me
& *PROOF* !
i drop into the drain!
then pull myself up n homed & quarreled with Lawrence Peh.
Freak man.
I am really losing control of my own emotions.
I HATE HIM.
yes, i do.
Freaking hate him ttm man!

-This is our conversation after i reach home:-

HIM:
Baoby e squid stuffed with sweet rice at e fair is 6.80 2 pieces, OMG Lyk so tempting Haha

ME :
Oh. (busy cleaning the wound, throw hp in the room)

HIM:
Yup Somemore got scallop tidbit liddat de 80g 18 dollars exp hor?

ME:
Ya

HIM:
Why's your answer all one word? One word jiu suan le, does it takes so long to type a word?

ME:
sui bian lurhs.

HIM:
Wad's this attitude.

ME:
lyk i say b4. I muz always be free whenever u r free to msg. I muz reply u like wad? 1 sec 1 msg? U can be bz then take longer to reply i cnt?Rofl!

HIM:
Ha you're not? Touch your heart and say you're not.

ME:
yayaya. im showing you my attitude? Lols. Watever lurh. U happy jiu hao lorh.

ME:
I am jiu i am loh. Why? Wads wrong? Even b4 we are tgt i told u my attitude sucks. U said you could accept, so wad are u complaining man?

HIM:
Ha, so is that really the way you reacted from e start? Stop deceiving yourself la, you just wana ti me la admit it. Stop being like a kid can. When i try to communicate with you you're giving me ya, oh, sui bian ni. Zzz

ME:
lol. then touch your heart search ur own memory is this how yoo treated me at the start? LMAO! i tot yoo understood after toking 1 month ago. N shyt man! who oso can say i am like a kid, bt NOT YOU! u dnt even haf any right to comment abt me luh!

HIM:
Ha, how did i talk to u juz nid and how did yoo reply. ask yourself if yoo really wana reply or you jus reply for the sake of replying k? you used to text me wad yoo dg n stuff, now? Haha.

ME:
Lmao! u sure yoo wan me to say? U sure? U used to meet me everyday. Even when yoo nid to work at hotel, U made breakfast for me. Send me to work. Fetch me from work, Mit me after work w/o me saying. Send me home. Go shopping with me by my side. buy things 4 me. Msg me fun stuff and sweet msgs. Corl me whenever yoo can even when yoo are eating or in toilet. Be there for me for 24/7 365 days no ph no leave no mc no excuses no complaints. Using all the vulgar on me. Even had the urge to beat me up? n now ha? wad have yoo did wad haf yoo said? 1 sentence. Why cant u 4gt th past?Simple! i oso know how to sae la. yoo can do it ask urself why lurh. i cant man. lan jiao wei every1 oso oe how to say luh. sae easier wad.

HIM:
Haha ya as time changes yoo didn't? whatever you said is always right la Miss Right. Ya i can't be with you all the time now and stuffs, so because of that you're not happy? wad can i say, if you are a guy u will understand NS. Too bad you'll never understand even when im driving i will also reply ya msg, unless i find that road dangerous i will tell yoo i go drive le. did i have the urge to beat you up?yoo sure- NEVER ASSUME OR JUMP TO CONCLUSION.

ME:
Ya. i just jump into conclusion lorh. or i shld say u have been threatening me with ' ltr i hoot yoo till yoo blankfile' with your 拳头 facing me? for like how many times? ya. i changed lorhs. sui bian. i am mis right? sui bian. ask yourself lurhs. when yoo bz yoo din even reply me so wads wrng with my 1 word reply sia? n u don't even oe wtf im bz with ok? but i dnt see any point 4 me to tell yoo liao. whatever yoo say yoo right lorhs. tats the conclusion. Tats all.

ME:
n yah. i don't uds. cosh i nvr know any ns guy as bz as u. is who dnt uds here? n who dont qian jiu who? n who wrong who right? doesn't matters alrdy man.

HIM:
Stop it la, everything my fault k? happy, go slp good night. ya i dnt oe wad yoo are bz with, did yoo tell me? at least when im busy i told yoo.

HIM:
Everything doesn't matter to you with my inside. HAPPY?

ME:
say whatever that makes yoo happy lorhs.

HIM:
same goes to you.

-The end of our conversation.-

FUCK SHYT MANNN!
i took like 1hr++ to clean my wound apply medicine on it then eat my dinner for like 20 mins.
wash my dishes & rest awhile watch tv.
I have my things to do at home ok?!
FUCKING SHYT.
i dnt see myself kip msging yoo when you are bz?
i dnt make a big fuss out of a 1 word ans?
totally spoil my mood to ttm man!
& when i wasn't the one who started all the shyts, i was told to shut up!
NICE ONE MANN!
Girls girls girls!
Rmb this man! never fall for a guy or believe a guy for being a gentleman, being goody man to you at the start.
Cause you will just regret like me!
FUCKING SHYT!
& pls lurhs. go think lurhs.
when i was trying to tok to yoo in a nice way asking yoo stop scolding vulgarities,
wad yoo say to me? continue your vulgarities AT ME! (on saturday after we meet adrian)
acting like 1 chaoahbeng, talking in those paikia tone?
"WU SEI SIA".
*PUI*
& when i was asking yoo a qn, cosh i dnt get it,
yoo ask me wad? MAI LAN JIAO WEI LA. (on sunday)
& pls lurhs, whenever yoo ask me a qn yoo dnt get it i will only ans
"WEN FEI HUA AH?"
see the difference?
DUMB FUCK.

Pls lurhs. i dnt entertain your fucking nonsenses ok?
if thats the way you treat your gf,
then too bad lurhs go change a gf who like this kind of act yi ge jin siat paikia lurhs ok.?
NOT ME!.

i don't fucking should tolerate all this shyts from you man.
you want change & be like a dickdead, fuck go ahead man.
i am so moving on with my life.
who isn't the growing up one?
who is the 1 acting like a kid?
go think lurhs.
everything here is in black n white from your sms & mine.
i never hide anything here.

&
lastly,
Thanks for the hurt, the pain, you have been causing. :)
& MAKE SURE YOO DON'T TOUCH / BEAT ME,
IF NOT I WILL MAKE SURE I WILL BREAK YOUR MANHOOD BROTHER.

*I AM FUCKING SERIOUS HERE. :)*

fyi, the pictures is only for my right leg! my left leg didn't have any wounds but got blue-black! :(
having difficulty to bathe this morning man! :((
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