JoL says: ILOVETHEPEOPLEAROUNDMEWHOISTRUETOME!

Saturday, went out with B, huiyu (sis) and adrian (bro) to Teo Heng!
Sang for 2 hours and went for our dinner. Had ½ spring chicken set meal & taste real bad. Then waited for pearlyn and bused back to sengkang. Reached, went back to B’s house and bathed, then went down RC to slack, joke, play poker, laugh and fight! But don’t want to go into details. (:

Went home around six in the morning, reached home, changed, and fall asleep.
Woke up in the noon, eat, bathe, vacuum floor, 包红包 for MrLau, buy viceroy ice, green-tea and walked over to patrick’s house to celebrate Father's Day, around one and the weather is so fucking hot lurhs dey!

And after 10 minutes of walk under the hot sun! We finally reached! Then eat, played with the dog and MAJONG-ED with pat, ken and wendy. And guessed what?! I only managed to play 3 rounds with them in 3o minutes! The slowest mahjong game I have ever played can?! Not very 爽 but was ok with it, because of my 青一色! :D

Then went off around four, walked out and cabbed over to sengkang again. Met B and ahjie at RC, took photos (do we look like one family? LOLS), smoked and went back to my 2nd home, their house! Then watched horror and went down to slack, play poker, laugh, joke with huiyu (sis) then adrian (bro) joined us and they went off around twelve and after a toilet break at B’s house I cabbed home.

Reached home, called B and fall asleep soon after we hang the phone.
All of us had a very tired weekend! But yet the happiest moments for all of us!
:D

JoL says: I Will Always Be Your Princess.

:D
I am back & I have been very happy recently!
& how I wish things could always be like this, correct b?

Anyway, Wednesday night met up with b & fel. Pass over b my stuffs and his tops, and then b surprised me with a present! Something that I need so much and want so much! Really love him so much man! & really got very touched & stunned by him! :D

Then Thursday night, met up with fel, hanwei, b, and then sis & bro came over to 845 to join us. Then played poker, smoke & joke and backed home.

Yesterday met up with b, sister, sis, bro and the usual slacking kaki at sengkang, played poker again, smoke again, chat again and went off around 4am. Reach home rest awhile and off to work! :D

As for today, will be meeting b, sis and bro again at sengkang and off to katong. :D
Hopefully today will be another nice day out with them! :D

That’s all for now!
Bye Loved!

Saturday*

Went out on a OUTING!!! =))

With DeeDee,Me,Adrian*StickMan*, Sis*HuiYu*,Aloy,PartTime*Malcom*

and Mayi come too.

Watch Drag Me To Hell,

quite nice 3/5

Sound Effect gonna burst ur drums,but e plot is quite expected.

But ok worth watchin for someLaughters.

After Movie Mayi went home nt feeling well.

So The Group Of Us went over to MS YukiYaki.

We Eat,

We Slack,

We Talk,

We Joke,

We Laugh,

We're Done LOLS.

So full can still play e ice cream game wow =)) damm heng LOLS.

Went to meet Fel as DeeDee say de thn chatted awhile we got off

After tat went down to Bugis Dee bought some stuffs and waited for Fel

to come, went StarBucks grab a drink took bus 80 back to SK.

Slack till Sunday, everyone tired fk lols CRASH STRAIGHT.....

Love You Dee Dee =))

If I'm able to choose again,

I'll still Be with you wherever You go,

and Stay By You FIRMLY.

Love You My Little Angel =))

Lawrence Peh

JoL. says: I am really HAPPY !

Morning Loves!

Yesterday, mei came over and look for me at 856A, and then 2 of us are like crazy woman lurhs, then keep talking and talking non-stop! Oh my mama, I am like really too talkative but yet we enjoyed lurhs while waiting for ah b, sis, laodi and 2 of his other friends. But at the same time got very thirsty, then I don’t know why got very high! Then I started to move here move there move everywhere, as if I am a monkey lurhs! :D

Then finally! Ah b and sis came over! Then like shit one lorhs, ah b and sis lied to us lurhs, saying sis not coming liao, then when saw ah b walked over with sis, I shouted! “LIAR!” like so funny lurhs. then after they reached, we continue to wait for laodi and his friends. Then finally! they came! Like so long lorhs =.= then because the playground is too small we changed to 843 while waiting for bro to cab over. And when finally, all came over liao, we got so noisy till I think if I am staying there I will just shout down “KAOPEI LURHS!” haha.

And recently, the police at Tamp is like so on one lorhs! keep on patrolling then we are like having illegal gathering there! LOLS! then ah b and bro went one corner chat and laodi’s friend also went one corner chat, then sis don’t know walk till where. Then throw me, mei and laodi there =.= then after awhile laodi’s friend came back, then ah b and bro ask me go over then I am like so proud of myself! It’s like after so long someone say I am good in counseling people! haha! :D It’s like can you imagine how happy am I? :D

Then after awhile mei, laodi and his friends went off. So throw me with ah b, bro and sis. =.= then went to 847 then slack, listen to song, chat, smoke, laugh, emo and most important! GOSSIPS! :D

Then we went off around 2+am? And then after sending me home, ah b, bro and sis cab home. :D And the minute I reach home, I *poom* drop dead on my bed! But ah b called me then chat awhile then ask him to 哄我睡觉, so again, he say bed-time story for me.
“ The Cinderella.” and till I fall asleep. :D

And frankly speaking, I am really really really very happy yesterday. And I really really really hope things could always be like that. “HAPPY.” :D

JoL.says: I am very fragile too...

Morning loves.

Yesterday quarreled with ah b, cried all the way home, shouting, screaming like nobody business, just want to let myself feel better.
Then later in evening, went out to meet fel, part-time, laodi and laodi’s friend at 856A playground. Those guys really cheer us up a lot, but they are always talking about NS!
It’s so BORING! But its okay, at least we did laugh, did smile do we? :D

Anyway, after laodi and his friend went off, we catch up with part-time a little, and he really lost a lot of weight in NS lurhs! Oh man, I am so envy lurhs can? Cause I am getting fatter and fatter! It’s time to lose some weight lurhs, but I don’t really have the motivation to nowadays. :P

Then walked home myself, thinking a lot of what’s happening between ah b and me.
Did some reflection? Did I? I don’t know, but all I want is the same as what ah b wanted from me, or could put it in a way, our aim is the same, which is to stay happily together, enjoy when we are together. Maybe I put too much of stuffs into consideration before making decisions, before enjoying myself or ourselves. ;(

Reached home, gastric hurts like hell! So I had a late dinner again. (if continue like this, I got no idea when then I can slim down.) After “dinner”, straight away give ah b a call and we quarreled again. Ah b cried in the phone, venting all the feelings, hurts that he had in him for a long time. And I don’t know why, I felt envy of him. Because throughout the phone call, I am also deep hurt inside. I wanted to cry out so much so much! But yet, I got no tears, and I asked him ”哭的感觉很好吧?” and he cried harder, louder, saying “ when a guy cries, which mean he got very chng xim.” and when I heard this, I finally broke down into tears. Somehow I find that, we are going no where. And before I called him, I asked him a few questions because somehow I find that I am the only one who can give him so much stress and so much hurt till he broke down and I don’t want it that way, but somehow, he misunderstood me, he says, I say that because I want to leave him, because I don’t love him. But, that’s not the way but it’s just too late to say anything anymore, because I know, he no longer can listen to what I am saying anymore. And no matter how I explain to tell him that he had misunderstood what I say, he doesn’t put it into his head anymore.

Sigh~ I just hope things could be better if I am totally changed, I just hope this relationship, which we try so hard doesn’t go into the drain. If everything could be better, both of us are really happy, I am willing to change, willing to give in no matter what, willing to do anything for you, as long as you are happy. I can finally understand now why, why you started to treat me so differently from before, like what you say, your sub-conscious mind telling to do things this way to protect yourself from getting hurt. But all I can say is, whatever I did, whatever I say, whatever I act like, my wall set that high no matter towards who, no matter is friend, family or you, is the same. The reason why I am like this is because, anyone from any category of whom I know, once hurt me that deep before. I have my fear, I no longer want to cry alone in the dark when no people care and bothered, no people consoling me, and no people understand the hurt I am having, no people listening to my sorrows, no-one could heal that hurt that each individual give me.

I am like that from day one you know me. I am always the same. I am always that fragile who is acting strong and independent. I also hope to lead a normal and simple life like others, I also want to show people that I am fragile, but do I have a choice? Can I do that too?

I know and I understand, that even though you are a guy, you are also a human, you also have feelings and will get hurt, angry, depressed too. But no matter how fragile a guy is, comparing to a girl, he is still stronger. Isn’t it? I am not saying that whatever I said, I am right or you must agree with me, but I need to tell you that, from outer look, I might look strong and independent, but deep inside me, I am those type of girls, once you touched, I will break. I am that fragile. ;(

And quoting from what you say, let bygones be bygones. True. I should forget my past, I should forget how much each individual had hurt me, 属话说得好，我不应该因为一棵树，毁掉整个森林. But I already have the fear in me. No matter how I do, I can’t bring myself to forget the fear, I can’t put down or could put it in a way I don’t know how. I need someone who is strong enough to standby me and helped me out. But now, I don’t know if you still willing to be the one who standby me and helped up a not. Because I know at this point of time, when you are protecting yourself from all hurts, you are tired, you must be fragile.

Haiis, I guess that’s all from me?
Bye Loves. (:


"当一个女人哭，是因为她很累了。
当一个男人哭，是因为他死心了。
但是当一个女人，想哭却哭不出来，是因为她真得太痛了。"

JoL says: She wants to feel better!

hehes, done with my new blogskin~
new tag, new link! everything is new!
hopefully my life is new tooo!

anyway love my current skin alot~
took so much time & so many days to do lorhs!
hais, felt so tired after finish doing! =.="
finish dg everything liao~ finally can take a good rest! :-D
budd i gt nth to do in offce now~
so chatting mei now lurhs!

& its eeryy! cosh we are facing same problem again n again!
LOLS!
okays, imm random =.="

then ytd cow papa called me!
chat for an hour, chat about many stuffs lurhs.
then he give me alot of advice, counsel me, cheer me up lorhs.
then i tink i really think alot barhs? so suan liao~ :D
i guess imm happier like tat ?
at least i know i wnt regret in the end ?

bud of cosh i know cowpapa 是为了我好 bud i guess imm happier this way for current?

cosh no ppl can predict what will happen in future barhs? :-D

k lurhs tats all!
& PEEEPOS!! RELINK ME & TAGGG ME LURHS!
buaibuaii~~

JoL says: She Miss Those Days. :(

For some reasons,
imm very disappointed now..
felt so terrible isn't it? JoL.? asking myself...
mayb some things are really not what i could control isn't it?
mayb some things are really not fated isn't it?
mayb i should go emo one corner barhs..

anyway!
met up with laodi ytd! LOLS
came over to slack awhile b4 him leaving to meet his frens.
i guess both of us are really tired lurhs!
kip yawning & yawning~
budd anyway! i really miss those days whereby we slack, chat, xia-lan, guai-lan, smoke, gossips, console each other, laugh, cry, emo, have fun tgt!
eventhough tat period of them we are all single, budd at least we are happpyyyy!
:-D

k lurhs tats all (:
buaiibuaii~

Jol's Feelings & Thoughts.

working on my new blogskin~
not sure if i wana open a new personal blog or haf a change in this link?
can't decide yet~

anyway, ytd went popular & bought 2 storybooks !
& i purposely go buy those sibei sad story so i could cry out lurhs.
buddd in the end i only teary.. zZz
so hard to cry recently, felt so terrible!
as no way to vent my anger anymore. haiish. :'(

k lurhs, tats all peeps!
:D

我真的好辛苦，痛得我好累可是却无法哭泣，
每一次吵架我的心都痛得无法呼吸，
每一次吵架你都会说些让我绝望的话，
算了，我真的不想管了，
现在开始我只会做一个女朋友该做的东西，
其他的我不想管了，
我的心真的麻木了.....

Sometimes, i really feel no point anymore...

(:

heya! back blogging~ hohoho~
been tonning over at sengkang, been eating late DINNER!
& i really mean by late , cosh is like ard 2-3am? =.="
which should be supper~ budd actually is dinner =.="
budd is due to, my breakfast is at 4pm =.="
LOLS.

kays anyway,
i tink both mei & me finally had the chance to meet LAODI!
like omfg! so long nvr see him liao zZz
dhen toktoktoktoktok~ & he is forever the SAME man! WHAHHAHAHA
& yay~ we 've gt a driver~ WHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA~
then met up with him for sat & sun~
budd cosh he too guai ~ went home too early~
so cant send me home! ROARRR!!!
so still have to cab home in the end =.="

& today took 1/2 day~
cosh really too tired liao!
& nw imm back in office & work!

:DD

( overall had a good weekend, budd did quarel with ahb AGAIN!! )
SO SIAN AHHHHH!!
!@#$%^&&^%$#!

Such a weird day, got up @ 230 T_T,

so late so late omg hahas,

text dee e 1st thing and poof went to bath,

after i'm done text dee dee agn tellin her i'm gng to work =)).

Upon arrival @ bus stop it seems lyk every typical day,

as usual went onboard Bus 80 =)).

went up to the upper deck on e right side near e end where the bell is ,

thn gt a couple took e sit so i sat 2 seat infront of them.

thn whn i sitted i heard e guy said: smoke wad shit sio think he so cool.

i didnt bother as maybe he's nt refering to me .

thn he continued:smoke wad Marlboro Menthol,

think he si bei pai kia ar?

i got up went to him and fuck him upside down,

*alot of vuglarities so better nt say out*

thn he shut up and ask : You play where one?

I replied: Singapore la wad age le still play pai kia.

*continue fkin him*

Thn he shut up and Apologised,

so i forget it and said:

Dun Try to be funny to ppl u dunno,

dun nid to action infront of ur GF,

a REAL MAN wont find trouble with his GF ard.

He apologised agn...

So as usual i went to take 158 to Aljunied Chap Lao*circuit road*

went to papa stall n help out.

lalala~ a day's over.

Went home walk ah kao, bathed called dee dee,

had a tiff agn =(( so sorry i didnt control my temper if nt we wont quarrel=/

Wad's done cannot be undo i'm really Sorry Gal =((

love you loads !!!(\)(~.~)(/)!!!~

Lawrence

SOMEONE PLEASE?

2nd post in a day,
but it's just another short post lurhs. LOLS.
sian i guess i nid go for check up already~
been getting more n more giddy very often, single side headache,
vomit, laosai & TIREDDD!
SOMEONE PUT ME INTO SLEEP YAH?.

now when imm weak , i realise i have got nothing left by my side anymore.
no-one is here with me to hold me up again.

JoL is RANDOM!

Full of thoughts,
but don't know what i am thinking.

Felt terrible,
but don't know what makes me have such a feeling.

Need a check up in my mental status soon,
REAL REAL SOON.

:-D

Life is always full of surprise =)),

some are good while other SUCKS.

aHHhhhhh!!!

HAO FAN AR!!!

hMmpx been tellin every1 ard me nt to fan as

Fan Nao is Zhi Zi Zao De...

but dunno y i'm being damm stressed and pumped up tis 2 weeks

???

Wad's wrong with myself?

I dun think i'm myself recently,

always pondering bout things which does nt nid to b worrying bout,

yet not thinking of things tat nid to b done soon.

WTF wrong?

hahas who cares?

who knows?

Lawrence