RANDOM!.

RANDOM!.
meetinq ddear ltr for movie & dinner.
hopes everythinq turn out well?
cos recently really toooo much unhappy stuff happeninq,.
tht i quess both of us become more&more tired lerh barhs.. (:

♥thouqhts
juz wonderinq..
if one day i were tuh break down cos of everythinq,
will i haf th courage tuh cut myself like that? lols.

H.3rdmonthsary!

H.3rdmonthsary!
♥ddear.

recently been very down...
1st reason on th list : Ezlink Card gort some problem [ cant use T.T ]
2nd reason on th list : dropped my fone [ speaker spoil T.T ]
3rd reason on th list : been quareling with dear. [ even on our 3rdmonthsary T.T ]
4th reason on th list : adaptor broke [ so laptop haven been on till now T.T ]
5th reason on th list : slipper gort no friction anymore [ nearly slip & fall T.T ]
6th reason on th list : shipments having some problem. [ so stress T.T ]
7th reason on th list : quareled with them over moneyy [ T.T ]
8th reason on th list : drift apart from all friends [ T.T ]

haiish.
nidd tuh get all these replaced once imm paid.
wanted so much tuh cut myself at least i could lessen these pain.
budd no idea where my penknife is at. maybb i shall get a new one? :(
been down on my darkest path again, budd however i've g0rt no tears tuh cry anymore.
no longer know wadd im dg, thinking, wanting. :(
badly nidded someone whom i could tuh tok heart tuh heart..
haiish.

Things went wrong agn,

why must God be so mean to me? why ?

Causin me so much problems,

sometimes jus wanna be with her and yet i cant.

haiis, nth to sae. no words to xpress myself now.

Felt so sorry, giving my Sha Gua false hope agn,

tot of meeting her up, but due to some problems, i'm stuck...

Dear, i really really didnt mean to hurt u by giving u false hopes derhs,

For every men there's a soft spot, for me my soft spot is u,

seeing u so tired,Hurt, i'm really ashame of myself.

i didnt bring u enough happiness, enough joy...

mayb i'm still in my comfort zone?

mayb i'm really lousy?

mayb i'm a jerk?

No Matter wad i am i wanna tell You,Joanne Lau Mei Chen tat,

i jus wanna be with you, I Love You and always hoped to give u the best,

tis month really alot of bad stuff happened to our relationship,

we've endure e strong tests of love,

Let's continue to JYJYJY bahs *MUACKS~

WO AI NI~

Work

Everything is MESSED up LOLS~...

Lazarus got SCAKED -__- due to his stupid attitude and he went MIA,

Causin Chef Kali and me to slog out life off...

everything in e Indian kitchen is really tiring, but i'm happy there & tat's ENOUGH xD.

Love x3

Some stuffs happened between me and baby tis 2 weeks, i've caused her to be upset & stuff tis 2 weeks wthout me knowing it,

mayb it's due to e harsh workin condition ...

maybe i've really negelected her T_T....

Felt so sorryX((

Looks lyk The Boy Without Tears have Tears after all...

I knew you cried, i know... cox i can feel it too...

i just dun wanna sae anything, I've Failed as a boyfriend to you my love,

but i'm Striving to change...

Remember you said let's find out our Forever?

I remembered all these things you said to me and kept it in my brain hard, day and night,

rain or shine. I always LOVE you.

You should not blame ursef, i Love you tat y i said i wanna b with u,

you dun nid to b gentle,change ur attitude,change urself.

I LOVE YOU FOR WHO YOU ARE SHA GUA T_T.

seeing u so EMO&Down tis few weeks i'm lost...

as i really dunno wad to do, such an IDIOT I am.

reall feel tat i'm such a jerk, such a idiot...

So sorry to have let all these happen to you and you have to handle all these alone...

I'm always here fer u,tell me, i'm more than willing to b ur listening ear,

ur chu qi bao, ur sha bao, wadsoever as long as it bring a SMILE to you, I'm contented.

I dare not as for more as i'm happy with wad i have now, and it's YOU.

You brighten up my life, filling every moment with different colours,

yes, it's hard to survive a relationship,but with every obstacles & problems we've conquer,

OUR LOVE have strengthen and we both know tat we're true to each other.

Dont think tat i'll leave you like all thos idiots,

as my Mind,Body and Soul have been attachted to You,Lau Mei Chen Joanne.

Let all secret be told, let all feeling be shown.

Sha Gua Lao Po, dui bu qi, cause i've use e wrong method of love to love you.

Yong yuan de ai ni (^_^)

24 ge xiao shi bu da yang wei le ni .

I LOVE YOU ...

♥nidded a huq badly.

;[[

today,nearly cried in office.
LOLS! IM SUCHA CRYBABY!
hate this. really hate myself for being so weak!
budd recently i kept cryinq barhs.
been cryinq for these 2 weeks. din tell anyone.n0rt even dear.
& someh0w i miss her, aka counsellor.
i missed those days when yoo are with me, listeninq tuh me, cryinq in yur arms.
haiish.

so lonq lerh, i nvr hide under th blanket & cryy.
budd recently, it seems i have been doinq it.
qettinq m0re & m0re sensitive alrdyy. haiish.

tday, dear hurt me aqain.
don't know is th how many times for these 2 weeks,
i don't know how much lonqer i could stand this.
miqht juz broke down anytime.HAAA.
maybe is i tink too much barhs.
budd to me onlyy, dear chanqed al0rt alrdyy.
he started neqlectinq abt my feelinqs, abt me.
feel kinda hurt. haiish.
felt so sucky too. :( & he ish n0 l0nqer th same boyf i had from start.
juz like my other bqr. l0ls.
no difference, only difference is, this time i haf to carryy all th sadness i had myself.
cos i really don't know who tuh find, i don't know who is willinq tuh listen to how i feel.
haiish.
feel lyk turninq back th time, where th happy moments are. ;'(

budd i don't blame fer his chanqed.
cos
who th hell in this world can haf a girlf. who has such fcuk-up attitude?
who th hell in this world can haf a girlf. who sayys break easily?
who th hell in this world can haf a girlf. who don't act like a girlf.?
who th hell in this world can haf a girlf. who is like me?
maybe one dayy, one fine dayy.
he will leave me just like wadd the other ex-boyf. did.
haiish.

don't know wadd imm typinq alrdy.
shall st0p here.
♥nidded a huq badly.

New Skin! (:

imm postinq! [:
after 12 days? LOLS!
kena naqq by some peeps tat i haf n0rt been postinq!
budd nth much fer me tuh post oso!
juz tat recently, more & more unhappy stuffs happen between me & ahpui~
haiish. how i wish i have a listeninq ear with me!
budd i don't know who tuh find oso. so yahs. 4qt it. (:

ANYWAY!
back with a new skin.
credits&credits! xD
n0 c0pypiqs THANNKYOO! (:
& flood my taqq b0ard kays? ^^

NITES ALL!
*muaccks*

Work*

Offically compeleted a day in e indian station, the chef treats me good,

compliment me alot, but fk me too whn i made mistakes...

Everything went good, nothing crop up,except some small problems

which has been solved immediately.

so Cehf Kali is crazy as he talk quite loud,

go smoke la, don stand there LOLS~

do things too fast got break de wor xP.

Wonderful day @ work better thn being treated lyk a

SAI KANG WARRIOR @ ALA-CARTE haha.

Love Life*

Tried my best to wake up, yet i've failed once more,

mayb due to Insomia bahs...

Finish up all my sleeping pills long ago =((

so tried my best to slp, yet it's still 2 or 3+ am thn i fell asleep...

mornin woke @ 6+ thn *POOF, went bak to slp...

My will power has weaken,due to e late slping hours,

@ ala-carte doing mid night shift, nw i regret doin mid nytee shift as i'm used to it T_T.

Called baby& smsed with her...

She seems moody & she says she not, smth is wrong i know, but she wont tell me...

After work, i called her, we chatted and she said it out...

She said: Wo bu shi sheng qi, wo zhi bu hui zai dui ni you ren he de yao qiu & qi wang.

After reading this sms, i felt that i'm really such a lousy Boyfriend, making promises to her,

yet i didnt fulfil it to her... T_T.

After i reach my hse below,my sis called and came to take ciggy -__-,

and she asked y u so EMO liddat...

and i told her wad happen,

my sis said: kor ur slpin problem is really v jialat,u know le yet u still promise her to send her to work.

I said: I said i've tried my best and i dont wanna disappoint her u know, i love her so much.

She said: Even if u said tryin ur best, it's still a hope to her, she'll b waiting de u know and now isnt it even worst? she's more disappointed now.

I said: yea, mayb i've really overlooked this Haiis...

She said: Nobody is perfect,so if u cant thn sae u cant,dun think u so perfect,

Demster(her EX) also got slpin problem, he more jialat u know, dont give Her( Mei Chen)

false hope and false promises, u have ur flaws, so if u cant wake tell her.

I said: yea, mayb i'm not perfect,really not... I'll try my best from today onwards...

Felt WORST, i HATE MY INSOMIA!!!

I'll overcome it with Will Power and my Love For her.

*sis calling me*....

*ignoring her as i'm thinkin y am i so foolish? always thinkin tat i can be perfect?

Maybe there's no perfect, there's only Best.

I'll Strive hard to be her BEST BEST BEST Boyfriend from NOW on.

1) Not breakin my promises, small or big.

2) be more gentle to her and not so chu lu.

3) Showing her and not saying only.

I shall slowly try to cancel out this 3 big main problems 1st...

Today's Lesson, Not to give My Sha Gua Lao Po anymore false hope,

Actions speak louder than words...

I'm utterly sorry fer wad happen tis 2 days...

I Just wanna give u e BEST and let u feel tat u're e most Xin Fu de Nu Ren,

yet i've failed time and again.

I believe ONE DAY I WILL SUCCEED !!!

Lao Po Dui Bu Qi T_T,i know u're more disappointed, you've lost hopes in me,

PLEASE PLEASE DONT~...

Loving You Always

haoHUBBY (\)(T_T)(/)......

HmMpx Tried to wake up in e mornin to send Sha Gua Lao Po to work,

woke up and thn fell asleep again LOLS~

thn whn i really woke, it's already 7+? so i called her straight away..

hMmpx, sorry didnt manage to send u to work today =((

But I try again tmr ^^

Thn went to the house in Tampines to fax something over,

after that went to fetch my Zui Ai De Lao Po fang gong,

Trained to Tampines and mommom

Long John Silver, the chix really too hard lucky my teeth nvr snap =3=.

Kinda sucky hahas.

Went over to slack, before tat went to get our fav, Honey Dew Sago.

Talked a lot, smoked hahas, thn Felicia came over and the 2 gal went yada yada yada,

hahas~ lyk dunno hw many thousand years nvr meet le liddat-__-

After all e slackin, send Lao Po Home, and talked on e phone,

she fell asleep again while i'm on TPE lols~

hw cute of her ><

I Guess she'll always slp with me talkin to her,

I've got such a charm/curse? lols^__^, so whenever she cant slp she talk to me and *poof

IT'S MAGIC, SHE'LL REALLY FALL ASLEEP !hahas~

Thn was not so sure tat she was sleeping till i hear her snore =Xx

Cute huh?

Haiis, Xiao Bao Bao arhs, better don lei huai zhi zi ok?

Duo duo de bu miam bahs MUACK*

I Love yoos (\)(>_<)(/)...

Work

I've Finally got out of Ala-Carte Station =D...

It's a good thing as it's really too politic there and i've finally Get of wohoho.

1st Day @ Indian Station, everything was great and beautiful,

Then... when i was takin the curry to blast chiller to cool down, my sleves hook onto e water pipe or knob on e wall, the curry splash and both my hand got scalded T_T how pathetic LOLS~...

Ice bath my hand thrice, still doesnt work, pain& heat is still there,

No choice went to e clinic on the 4th floor and got MC for 2 days -__- ...

Life ^_^

Everythin was great, pass few days have been meeting my Zhu Bao Bao

*FLY TO HEAVEN* x))

and yea, we had a lil tiff * DROPPED TO HELL*and still i manage to make it up to her *Phew*

hMmpx she's so cute and lovely, budden dunno y sometimes i just cant control my strength flow,

yea, you're right i'm Chu Lu bahs, but i'll be mroe Wen ruo de wor,

I PROMISE ...

Just ended my chat with her, dunno y she sound so agitated,

somethings must have pissed her off,

i asked her why she ask me not to ask anymore...

If it's Me, i'm sorry my dear...

so i sang songs to her till she fell asleep HAHAS CUTE SIO x))

You always fall asleep derhs ><>

I Love You Sha Gua Lao Po (\)(^_^)(/)

Sorry fer makin you Angwee tym & again,

but with each hardship we've endure,

Our LOVE have strengthen.

Loving You Always ,

Bendan Lao Gong~

x(( recently alot of things happened,

got a counselling letter from my chef, and thn i got to know

I GOT BACKSTABBED O.o

Bloody shyt, don even feel lyk talkin bout it.

Played Yammyms, dear chiong till 200 le wor xDD Grats.

Happy for her,i'm quite sad though, as i've been sort of ignore. LOLS

Met dear ytd we mommom, thn as usual go slack,

thn she so ke lian, shoulder pain wor.

HmMpx dunno whn will b e nxt tym i see her ...

Lao Po, Wo hen Xiang ni~ T_T

Chiong Ah! :D

*bOo0o!
haven been blogging for very long!
so this update will be very long huh? x=

o6.o6.o8, I❤FRIDAY
went k0rk0r & wendy's chalet!
& kelian de dear work midnite shift on thursday!
so in the end he only slp 1.5hr cos he prepared the fried rice & went down straight after that.dhen 5.30~he at my office there, fetch me off work. =) dhen go h0me pompom~go down downtown east find them. ^^
met alot of ppl! m0st of them i know due to maple~ budd some of them were new~
budd could get along quite well~ ^^ dhen chatted with some of them~ played poker card~ then bbq~ *budd is actually they bbq i momm momm xP* dhen ard 11? went dear's place & slp straight! cos damn fking tired lurhs!

o7.o6.o8, I❤SATURDAY
nth much~woke up in the afternoon?~
played poker with dear~entertained his didi~watched tv~go down slack&smoke~
did nothing lurhs basically. & tats all i can rmb? x=

o8.o6.o8, I❤SUNDAY
went home ! & dear de papa sent us back to tampines mall~
BUDDDD! b4 tat he brought us to blk400+ there don't oe for wad~?
was very bored! & bought icecream & float & his didi bought the crackers?
& his didi called me "chenchen" & dear was very JEALOUS! HAHAHAHAHA !
then after tat dear came over my house~ we played poker cards again! with k0r & wendy. dhen wendy went back~ & dear went back much later. & someting unhappy happened~ quarreled with dear. then i went off to slp. xP

o9.o6.o8, I❤MONDAY
dear off!& morning he fetch me to work with a home-made breakfast ^^
& june was jealous-ed =P then i kip kena suan~SUAN~SUANN~ so shy l0rhs! *^^*
then he help me carried the HEAVYYYYY LAPTOP to my office there ! so i n0rt so tired & xin ku~ HAHA! my dear is so strong huh? *jk =P* & he went back SG & slp!then he went to meet MAYILAOGONG at BB to collect our couple watch =x & LAOGONG said he was cute! LOLS! *i din know my dear gort sooooooooo cute leh? xP* dhen he went back SG again dhen came back to eunos & fetch me off work! ^^ dhen dear stayed over at my place. x=

1o.o6.oo8, I❤TUESDAY
m0rning dear wake me up! as usual! but this time is beside me!=x
then he sent me to office there~ & went home to maple with me & off to work ard 1pm?
currently playing maple at private server~ YammyMS!
quite nice~ & both of us chiong lyk siao sio~ hahaha. dhen bought my laptop home!
then chi0ng till 3+ - 4am, then go & slp l0rhs. so is lyk ard 10am i played till 3+ - 4am ! SIAO RITE? & i lvled 170 BISHOP ^^ hehe! dhen b4 i slp~showed dear attitude cos he kip cant hear wad i sae when im lyk shouting alrdy? =.= so i was pissed off lorhs!& somemore im lyk so fking tired! so b4 i kap his fone~ i saee i don't love him!& OFF~ to my lalalalalalala land!

11.o6.o8, I❤WEDNESDAY
woke up myself today!si ah pui nvr call me! *hmmph*
& i was lyk late! cos im lyk stuck in the rain =.=
walk 1/2 way gort heavy rain! KNS! & i was drenched!
felt so cold~ try contacting si ah pui budd cant contact him =.=
then suan liao~ called office~ & said i will be late.^^
dhen reached office! MAPLE! ^^
& after the whole day of training~~ LVL 180 lerhs! & helmed.
woahs. today was lyk the 1st time i ZAK & g0rt my helm ! =x
So HAPPPYYY~ ^^ dhen ard 4 - 5? see hp~ gt lyk 7 missed calls~6 sms~
& all from DEAR! LOLS! then i faster reply his sms lorhs.
seee~i so good rite? =x
k lurhs. then nth much lerhs!
1 thing is! IM SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO TIRED! T.T
gonna catch some slp today!
if n0t tmlo i will be a zombie in office! (:

SORRY TO MY ONE AND ONLY SHA GUA LAO PO,

LAU MEI CHEN.

So Sorry to My Wifey...

didnt wanted things to turn out liddat derhs.

I know Sorry cant make it up to u ,

and you've heard it alot of times le.

But I'm really sorry.

I'm Such a disappointment to you...

SORRY MY BABY T_T.

From Tomorrow Onwards I Shall Pull Out Everything Inside Of Me

And Shall Amend my ways xD

I Love You My Wifey~

And I really dont wan you to b Angry or upset.

I'll slowly conquer all my FEARS ,

if not how can i even PROTECT YOU.

I'M SORRY MY WIFEY.

I LOVE YOU...

MUACKS*

Hope Tmr can wake up early xD

Hi & Bye~ :DD

WAITING FOR

LAWRENCEPEH a.k.a HUBBY

TO FETCH ME OFF WORK!

[[:

kayys. this is random!!
budbye! ^^

Saturday*

T_T wanted to spend e day nicely and sweetly with Lao Po de...

Budden things will always turn wrong x((

I overslpet and made her waited for me for 3 hours alone @ Pasir Ris =Xx

SORRY SHA GUA LAO PO~

of cox she's ANGRY AND MAD @ me ...

so i hong hong ta yi xia and we went to Sakae to mommom x))

After tat we caught e show CONGKAK, a malay horror...

Dear was lyk so scared and held onto my hand tightly lols...

And e cinema is v disturbing with things flying and walking around so irratiting sio =3=

spoilt our mood for watchin movie hahas.

Sunday*

Went over to Dear dear house and played maple...

more of a she train i leech and i was watching Smiling Pasta.

V nice sio e show hahas~ i Love it ^^

thn mommom @ her house , her dad is still so COOL hahas,

her mom has turn more and more friendly x))

tat's a good thing lols

thn after i went to work, so tired sio e work everyday slog and slog lyk a cow

thn everytym gng break tym @ 3am got so many order come in

so SHAG de sio >___<

Monday*

Forgot liao ~ ^__^

Tuesday*

Was so tired tat i slept e whole afternoon lols, chatted and sms with Sha Gua Lao Po

and went into work, she got a headach -__- and slept early .

luckily she's OK le xD xD Thank God ^^

Was lyk slackin as i'm workin with Daniel lols

and there's lyk nth much to do so i man man lai...

230am finish le thn 3 gng mommom e tym, i jus mommom finish alot new order came...

Pizzas~Club Sandwhiches~Burger and stuffs...

I'm wondering hw come e guest all so late le still don wan slp still

eating so much in e night -__-

so i'm so tired and went to rest a little and woo hoo~ set up salad bar and Buh buh

Shangri-La~ hahas.

Gng meet dear later xD

So Looking Forward to it^__^

as i MISS her so much hahas~

I LOVE YOU BABY~

Heavy Post.

[[:


I♥SAT
MY COMPLAINTS: DEAR MADE ME WAITED FOR HIM FOR 3 HOURS!
REASON: HE OVERSLEPT & HIS MUMMY SWITCH OFF HIS ALARM!

met dear ytd~budd he was late! :(
so after he woke up~ he cabb-ed over to pasir ris & looked for me.
then we train-ed tuh simei & had SUSHI!
*SUSHI IS LOVED! HAHA!*
then train-ed back to tampines again & watch-ed "CONGKAK"
while waiting fer th show , we went tuh starbucks!
& had frapprecino caramel! dhen went camwhoring at century square rooftop!
& the scene was damn nice! & i was lyk telling dear~
the place is so romantic!! 好浪漫哦！^^
th sound effect damn scary lurhs! so i jitao hold dear's hand & don't let go.
hehex. ^^
dhen walking back tuh my house nearby, i step on muddd!!!
so dear went & buyy to bottle of water & washed my leg, shoes for me.
TOUCHED* cos he is washing it with barehands. (:
dhen we cabb-ed tuh his place as i went over tuh ton!
& reached lerhs dhen slp til 5+am wake up~then continue slp till 12+pm then wake up!& was zhenjie who woke us up! l0ls.
bt inbetween i kip wake up oso, due tuh DEAR, tat baddie! juz jk. xP
then wake up lerh dhen he pompom & bus-ed back tuh pasir ris,
bought a present for maggielau for her bday.cost ard 40+-50! :(
sooo expensive! budd dear & i shared tat present. ^^
dhen train-ed back tuh tampines, & dear came over my place.
maple-ed all the way & lvl-ed twice. & watched "SMILING PASTA" while playing.
& i guess dear is oso addicted tuh tat show lerhs. HAHA!
then papa took 400bucks from me! & tomolo still have tuh payy my fking fine.
if n0rt gonna tio courtcase. HAIIS.
this month im left with 100-200 bucks. :(
how i wish~ a miracle can happen!
how i wish money could drop down from the sky! HAIIS.
this month im broke again . :(
budd no matter wad, still need to save & go out with la0p0 they all.
& had tuh cover my transport fee so i could find dear as & when i like. (:
h0pefully can barhs. HAIIS.

kays lurhs. tats all?


dear~
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i 爱 yoo.