21.6.08

Work*
Offically compeleted a day in e indian station, the chef treats me good,
compliment me alot, but fk me too whn i made mistakes...
Everything went good, nothing crop up,except some small problems
which has been solved immediately.
so Cehf Kali is crazy as he talk quite loud,
go smoke la, don stand there LOLS~
do things too fast got break de wor xP.
Wonderful day @ work better thn being treated lyk a
SAI KANG WARRIOR @ ALA-CARTE haha.
Love Life*
Tried my best to wake up, yet i've failed once more,
mayb due to Insomia bahs...
Finish up all my sleeping pills long ago =((
so tried my best to slp, yet it's still 2 or 3+ am thn i fell asleep...
mornin woke @ 6+ thn *POOF, went bak to slp...
My will power has weaken,due to e late slping hours,
@ ala-carte doing mid night shift, nw i regret doin mid nytee shift as i'm used to it T_T.
Called baby& smsed with her...
She seems moody & she says she not, smth is wrong i know, but she wont tell me...
After work, i called her, we chatted and she said it out...
She said: Wo bu shi sheng qi, wo zhi bu hui zai dui ni you ren he de yao qiu & qi wang.
After reading this sms, i felt that i'm really such a lousy Boyfriend, making promises to her,
yet i didnt fulfil it to her... T_T.
After i reach my hse below,my sis called and came to take ciggy -__-,
and she asked y u so EMO liddat...
and i told her wad happen,
my sis said: kor ur slpin problem is really v jialat,u know le yet u still promise her to send her to work.
I said: I said i've tried my best and i dont wanna disappoint her u know, i love her so much.
She said: Even if u said tryin ur best, it's still a hope to her, she'll b waiting de u know and now isnt it even worst? she's more disappointed now.
I said: yea, mayb i've really overlooked this Haiis...
She said: Nobody is perfect,so if u cant thn sae u cant,dun think u so perfect,
Demster(her EX) also got slpin problem, he more jialat u know, dont give Her( Mei Chen)
false hope and false promises, u have ur flaws, so if u cant wake tell her.
I said: yea, mayb i'm not perfect,really not... I'll try my best from today onwards...
Felt WORST, i HATE MY INSOMIA!!!
I'll overcome it with Will Power and my Love For her.
*sis calling me*....
*ignoring her as i'm thinkin y am i so foolish? always thinkin tat i can be perfect?
Maybe there's no perfect, there's only Best.
I'll Strive hard to be her BEST BEST BEST Boyfriend from NOW on.
1) Not breakin my promises, small or big.
2) be more gentle to her and not so chu lu.
3) Showing her and not saying only.
I shall slowly try to cancel out this 3 big main problems 1st...
Today's Lesson, Not to give My Sha Gua Lao Po anymore false hope,
Actions speak louder than words...
I'm utterly sorry fer wad happen tis 2 days...
I Just wanna give u e BEST and let u feel tat u're e most Xin Fu de Nu Ren,
yet i've failed time and again.
I believe ONE DAY I WILL SUCCEED !!!
Lao Po Dui Bu Qi T_T,i know u're more disappointed, you've lost hopes in me,
PLEASE PLEASE DONT~...
Loving You Always
haoHUBBY (\)(T_T)(/)......