我累了, 痛了.

th tears tht came down rolling my cheeks,
th pain tht is found in my heart,
so much of unhappiness, so much of accusations,
imm fcuking tired alrdy.

for times, yoo understand me so well.
for times, yoo questioned me.

wonderinq wad happens if i were tuh lose yoo someday down th road.
wonderinq will it be better for yoo if i were tuh leave.

will yoo moved on w/o me ?
will yoo feel anything ?
will yoo cry ?
will yoo let th devil of yoo come out again ?
will yoo take care of yorself ?
will yoo strive hard for yor future or gif up yor dream ?

yesh. yoo made me feel tht imm a princess,
yoo dotes on me, yoo protect me, yoo love me, yoo said imm not sticky,
yoo said imm independent whom dont depend on yoo most of th time.
yoo said i never take yoo as my boyf.
yoo asked me who are yoo tuh me.
yoo asked me will i wait for yoo when yoo are in ns ?.
yoo asked me can i nort be independent infront of yoo ?.

these are th questions tht yoo asked me.
for times i give yoo my answer.
for times i dont.

yupp, imm selfish.
i always think about myself.
yesh. i dont treat yoo well & make yoo feel like a prince.
i do things my own way & yoo just have to give in to me.
i know yoo are toleratinq my eveything.
i know cosh of my past, cosh of wadd is happeninq tuh me now & my past,
yoo are giving me extra care,love & concern.

i dont really ask alot from yoo.
all i need is,
can yoo just kip yor words ?
can yoo dont questioned me when imm sleeping?
yoo know me too well,
i would do anything tuh just have my sleepinq time.

workinq in kitchen is tired.
yup. my workload is nort as heavy as yoo.
budd me too will nid slp.
budd me too will get tired.
budd no matter how tired imm i will still try tuh accompany yoo isn't it?
i skip work to accompany yoo, this is something that yoo cannort do it anymore.
no matter how tired, i still wake up in th morning 7am just tuh go yor house during yor off in weekends, isn't it? .
no matter how tired imm, i still will accompany yoo back tuh sengkang & stay up till very late & cabbed home & start work in th morning nxt day, isn't it?
nort only yoo will have nort enough sleep..
nort only yoo will be tired..

yesh. yoo said that yoo are tired cosh of yor workload & working hours,
yoo wan me tuh uds that this is th reason why yoo cant kip yor words.
then me leh ?
can yoo question yorself,
did i,lmc ever use these as a excuse for myself tuh nort accompany yoo. ?
i can swear with my family name,
NEVER.

from th start till now, when i give yoo reason sayinq imm tired & nort wantinq tuh meet yoo is only when, yoo called me up & givinq me those tired&lazy voice askinq me wantinq tuh meet a nort.

imm nort tryinq tuh push every blame tuh yoo, neither imm tellinq yoo tht yoo are a bad boyf.
i just wanted yoo tuh uds how much i hate people for nort keeping their words & usinq people's weakness tuh get wadd they wanted !

yupyup. if this r/s were tuh end.
i would say is my fault.
coshh i guess i wasn't th type of girl yoo are looking for & i dont know how tuh be a good girlf.
& immm sorry about it.




♥MEICHEN